my dad once said that life is simple . so dont make it complicated . but im suffocating my brain with all these stupid non-endless love-sick matter that makes me wanna puke by just thinking of it but i just cant help myself cos im a normal human being and i have feelings too even though i know it really hurts but by not thinking of it i think im just running away from my problems and did you realise there is no full stop yet ? lately i've been thinking . i had some stupid thinking that i'd thought of doing but i dont have enough courage to do it and yet i know that all my friend will kill me for this stupid plan in my head . i know dear friends that you guys really love me . thank you for that . and i know you hate to see me suffer . but if i carry out this stupid plan , and god forbid i got hurt back , will you still be with me ? i mean i dont know what to do know . one thing i know that im sick of this stupid feeling . and i know by just listening to me or reading my writes makes you want to vomit like hell . maybe im being chessy , mushy , corny and all that stuff . but yeah , it feels like i have no one to talk to . by writing a part of my story might relieved me . a bit . sorry for you to had to read this . :)